Sunburst II: A creative fire in the mind.

This post will make more sense after you've read my first "Sunburst" post.

...So, I've had this meditation for years, and found it very helpful when I feel uninspired, afraid or even angry.

Then, two years ago we bought a house. A serious fixer, in addition to the interior needing lots of work, the back yard was essentially an uneven slope of weeds with one big tree in the corner.


I was surprised once we moved in how motivated I was to develop the garden, I had always considered myself a brown thumb, able to kill any house plants I neared. But now I was burning with desire, and spent every waking moment either working on it or meditating on it.


The process has been one of the most important "wizard classes" I've had, I feel I have learned a host of new skills (I could use that new vocabulary about now) in both creation and collaboration.

One of the many learning's I had from this process was a new understanding of my sunburst. Without trying, I would find it floating in front of my minds eye.

As I watched it and pondered, I noticed its character became clearer to me, the texture was no longer just undifferentiated glowing light, now I could see that it was made up of something related to flames that are somehow also sparks.

Constantly in motion, its like a jewel with limitless facets that endlessly turn in on themselves. (The motion reminded me of computer animations of theoretical 4th dimensional objects, such as hypercubes.)



I noticed that it came up most strongly for me at the point where I was shifting from "conceptualizing" my garden plans and moved into the physical "action" of landscaping.

One day, a moment of inspiration hit me that set off a series of profound inner experiences. I had the strong sense that this image, was a representation of what I now call the "reality engine".

I have long believed that we create our reality in a sort of subconscious state, and then somehow translate that into three dimensions, I am now convinced that this image is symbol of the process we use to do that.

What's more, I now think that this is not a completely subjective, abstract vision based on my meditation, but instead a universal symbol of reality generation.

You see, I started to realize its uncanny resemblance to the ancient symbol of the mandala. For awhile, every time I would see a mandala, I would say to myself "that's it!"

But it didn't stop there, soon, I began to see how often in nature we experience a burst of life in a similar visual pattern, suddenly they all seemed to be symbolic representations of the reality engine; a flower opening and our sun of course are two obvious corollaries.

The image even came up in my artwork.

Although I knew nothing of the official ideas of what a mandala is, a simple "Googling", found this, which sounds very close to the understanding I came to by myself.

I would love to hear if any of you have had any similar experiences.

Sunburst Meditation

About twenty years ago, I sort of inadvertently invented what I call my "sunburst meditation".

I loved it because it seemed to fit all my values, yet it was a simple concept I hadn't heard before. Probably inspired by Thaddeus Golas' eminently practical concept in "The lazy mans guide to enlightenment" that "When you learn to love hell you will be in heaven".

Essentially, I would envision a glowing sphere in my minds eye, But unlike like a sun or star it did not only send out its love in the form of glowing energy, but was a kind of energy magnet as well.

Conceptually any energy could be sent its way, and because it was vibrating at such a high level, (loving everything that came to it) by the time any energy got to it, it would automatically be vibrating so high as to be pure love.

I saw this as not only a meditation focus, but also kind of psychic shield, because I could imagine myself in it or as it. People could send me negative vibes and instead being effected by them or even "bouncing off", I could absorb them and elevate that energy, and send it back out in positive ways. Simply stated; I could LOVE them.

When I invented it, I had a deep and satisfying meditation on it. Leaving me in a surprisingly good mood considering the dark time I was going through. The very next day I was with a group of friends who knew nothing about it, (at the time I didn't share things like this) we were in a perfect strangers house.

I was absently leafing through a home decor catalogue on his coffee table when I remarked about a beautiful gold sun shaped convex mirror (they are popular now, but at the time I'd never seen them before) in the catalog, of course it had instantly reminded me of my meditation.

Our host responded a bit disdainfully: "Oh you like that?" obviously he didn't think much of it, but he promptly got up and left the room, returning a moment later with the very same mirror, still in its bubble wrap. "Here" he said, giving me the mirror. "I work for that magazine, and we get returns all the time. I was gonna put it on the side walk, but if you like it..."

The sunburst mediation has been with me ever since. In fact, lately its grown and taken on even more dimensions. Which I will post about soon.

But for now, I'd love to know; Do you have a meditation or focus point that has made an impact on you? I'd love to hear about it!

Difficult to Describe...

Language shapes our reality in ways we don't often consider. How do you talk about something there are no words for, in fact, how do you even think about it?

A simple example is to consider that there is only one word in English to describe love, yet in other languages there are words that clarify and classify the type of love (parent/child, platonic and romantic, etc)

The extra descriptors facilitate the discussion and even the mental exploration of what love is, they allow the concepts to be refined and combined. The language creates not only a way of communicating, but also a mental matrix for internal dialogue as well.

As an artist and writer, I want to help create a new vocabulary, one robust enough to describe the nuances of human experience and yet simple enough to be useful. I, of course, want to focus on areas that describe experiences and events at the edges of our reality.

I REALLY don't know what this language would look or sound like, but I do know that it is going to need to reflect multidimensional and subjective realities. To me this sounds like something that must go beyond words, it seems that it almost must use a combination of a wide array of symbols and media to even approach describing these subjects.

I also think it will need a new kind of "objectivity", which is simply an understanding and acceptance that all reality/perspectives are both uniquely subjective AND valid.

So you can imagine my excitement when I stumbled across this site today, "Xenolinguistics" where their stated purpose is: "evolving language in the psychedelic sphere". Just the idea that other people are considering the concept that we need more from our language in these areas seems to me as another pointer that our mass consciousness is opening up.

Are you seeing eleven's too?

A few months ago, I started noticing that often when I looked at the clock, any clock, it was eleven after the hour.

At first I just brushed it off as some emergent effect of my schedule. But it started happening more and more frequently, and then my schedule changed, then my job changed, I even went on a long vacation. what did I see? eleven, eleven, eleven. WTF?

I told my husband about it. We googled, and it turns out I am not alone. There seem to be several theories around, but no definitive answer. For me they seem to appear randomly, and unrelated to my activity or thoughts, but some people have a different experience.

At this point, I must point one out to Doug at least once a day. I even started taking pictures.

Are you seeing eleven's?

Groundswell

I'm starting this blog, because I feel compelled to. For the last several years I have felt my personal spiritual growth constantly accelerating. More recently, reality seems to be sending me little hints that a profound spiritual awakening is actually happening to the entire human race, and I'm supposed to blog about it.

My plan is simple, I will share with you insights and ideas that touch my spirit, as well as start a kind of "psychic trend watch", looking for "psychic clues" in the culture and in your comments that may point the way to whatever is next.

Weird calling, ain't it?